Janelle Brown: Out with the Old, In with the New
This week marks the 1-year anniversary of when I began my fitness journey in earnest. And while I am definitely not to my end destination, I have marked some pretty significant milestones. I really don’t think I could have imagined how much difference just taking some time to take care of myself would make in my life.
It does seem like I am on a clothes theme lately. Just this week, it became time to really look at my closet and weed out clothes that didn’t fit me any longer. I have always been one of those who kept several different sizes of clothes in my closet because cause my history told me that I could very well be back into those clothes again. But this time, everything went, except a few items that I will eventually try on again for those before and after pictures. It was a purging. I realized I no longer feel the need to hold onto the “just in case” clothes. The way I think about exercise and my health has altered so dramatically.
I have shared several of the physical milestones with you all in this blog, but I also believe I have truly made some permanent lifestyle changes. Am I still a work in progress? I can say without a doubt: YES. Do I still have my freak-out moments and lose control of my eating until I get my head? Absolutely! But I have fundamentally changed, to no one’s greater surprise than my own. I now need my workout or I am not sane – ask my children. When I am in a dark moment and having that second serving of something because someone said something awful to me, it as if I can see myself in a temporary place. Sure, I’d love to evolve to where those moments don’t go down that way, but the key for me is that I now perceive it as temporary instead of a return to the normal routine.
In this wardrobe purging, some of the standbys that still fit or weren’t size-dependent -- like shoes -- went, too. I wondered why I was so OK to part with some of these old favorites and it dawned on me. In a lot of ways I feel like I am a new person and the old clothes and styles just didn’t seem to pertain anymore. It is like I am changing identities. I am definitely still me, but different somehow.
There is still much work to be done. I know this. But I want to encourage you to take some today to sit back and appreciate your own milestones and anniversaries. Tomorrow it’s time to get back to work.